It’s easy enough to get lost in the details. Is my airplane seat where I want it to be? Is my ipod charged and loaded with things I’ll like? Do they have my Starwood Preferred number?  Which suitcase should I take?  Can I deal with how stupid the van for Parking Spot is?

Without descending into another “travel used to be better” reverie, my fixation on the details has made me wonder about what it was like when the details didn’t matter.

I think sometimes about what it was like in those long sweaty summers where I had to go the Baptist “day camp.” There was little to look forward to, really, given the Baptist (at least the ones who ran the camp) tendency toward, “go play in the creek and catch crawdads if you can.” These Baptists were not so much into structured day camps. Trapped by the creek for days on end, the very idea of traveling seemed better than Christmas. We’d get in the car and drive to the beach. I looked forward to it, despite strong evidence that it wouldn’t be as fun as I hoped. Because my brother and I couldn’t get along in the car, one of us would often be banished to the “way back” of our VW station wagon, underneath which was the engine. In the South.  In the summer.  Without air conditioning. Still, a trip was a trip was a trip and at least I didn’t have to go hang out with the Baptists for a week.

Next week, as you might guess, I travel. I travel from one coast to another and back and then down this one some away from where I live.  I’ve worked the details. Somehow, I can’t access those feelings of anticipation  I used to have. I try to comfort myself that this trip will involve no time on top of the engine of a mid-1970s Volkswagen 412 station wagon.

Still I can’t help wishing it felt a little less like staring into green water looking for the crawdads I could never catch.

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